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this is not life.

trains, mechanical voices,
the questions my friends ask. this is not life.
every song reminds me of you,
sour honey sliding down my throat.
this is not life.

two weeks ago i was flying:
on your shoulders, unstoppable, screaming with
you down into the hallways of the future.
we didn't just seize the day --
we went for the jugular and strangled the world.

saturday sitting on the jetty
you told me one day we would be flying among the stars.
i leaned against you and stared up at the blackness.
i believed you.

on monday the story changed.
you assured me that i was just a way for you to repent,
to apologise for every bad thing you'd done.
your eyes had some strange fury, like a man
who has glimpsed the face of God and found himself wanting.
you would not look up from the toes of your shoes.

(and i thought everything had been going so good.)
today is friday and still everything is the same:
the train i sit on leads nowhere. i am afraid
and the chill is creeping up my bones.
and all i have are the words: it shouldn't have been this way.
i should hate you for doing this to me, but i can't
because i'm lost in a flood of writhing thoughts.
you led me into this trap and then you vanished into thin air.

this is not life.

this didn't really happen,
but would it have meant something even if it had?

edit: changed the parts that i felt didn't really fit. feedback would be appreciated (:

comments welcome :heart:
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Newfie-Princess Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
very good :)
oneofthose-rachels Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2010
thank youu :heart:
loverz116 Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2010
wow, i love how you took something so common
and turned it into a lovely mess. :]
oneofthose-rachels Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2010
i'm glad you think so :)
loverz116 Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2010
you welcome :]
purpledresses Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2010
"flying among the stars."

this phrase means a lot to me. especially when stars are involved.

overall, i like how this progresses, and love the repetition and this.

oneofthose-rachels Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2010
aw, thanks (:
purpledresses Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2010
GemmaZ Featured By Owner Jan 8, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
woweee, i love this.. something about it; it's great :]
and looovee the font; how'd you do it on here? o_0
haha, but this is great work.. nicee :] :rose:
Anemone-The-Bored Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2009
There is no way to put into words how solid this feels. I can see it so well. If it weren't for the author's note, I could swear this was real.

For some reason this just grips me--it makes me want to hear more. It feels honest, but at the same time, beautiful. I love this. :)
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